闲人

想要知道什么，成为什么，做什么，一直都很迷惑。社会的“常识”，对自己的期待，为了别人而对自己期待，别人的期待，自以为别人在期待的，等等多层的反动。“应该”，“必须”等深查之下无意义的词汇。财富，职业等，被无法生存的恐惧操纵的欲望。层层的反动搅拌着浑浊的心灵。迷惑。

无尽反动的漩涡中，也许唯有静止能带来清澈。

故事里面常看到，人物因为某种契机而改变想法行动，甚至改变自己人生的去向。故事本身也常成为观众的契机，让观众改变。

但被契机改变并不简单。契机不是奇迹。被契机所改变的人，都要靠自己的力量去推动这个改变。而改变本身没有经过一定的酝酿，也不会被契机影响。
反过来讲，也许经过一定的酝酿，任何相似的状况都能成为契机吧。

几年前买书法的摊，很喜欢其中一对，写着“静观”和“随缘”。

乍看之下是被动懒散的人找的借口，实际上是很高度的能力。物理上，牛顿说每一个作用力一定有相等的反作用力。精神上更为复杂。不是“一定”会产生反动，所以才有静观这样的词。但经常都会有反动，而且会有多层的反动。压力－紧张－失败－自我责怪。他人的不幸－幸灾乐祸－内疚。但在连锁的任何一环，都能静观，而停止。

We don't often realize that when we say "That person makes me angry", or whatever emotion it is, that we are stating a physical impossibility. That person cannot magically alter our hormones, brain chemicals, and physiological responses to create states in us that we interpret as emotional responses. We are the ones that set these processes in motion. While others can set up a trigger for these emotions, they are impossible to create without our own participation.

We don't often realize as well, that when we are angry at someone, we are the ones who get damaged the most. We are the ones who have to endure the discomfort of being angry and the consequences of acting in anger. The failure to forgive is the ego at work; as if it is saying, the world has to treat me as I want it, otherwise it must face my wrath. Yet, the world is not obliged to treat me as I want, and it does not care for my wrath.